Category Archives: Freedom

Releasing trauma

We had a retreat here last Equinox and I’ve only recently understood what happened.  We had an all-night vigil leading up to the Equinox sunrise, working with sacred plants.  I had the extraordinary experience of having my body do some kind of yoga exercises, or so I thought, before going into involuntary spasm.  I was outside most of the night while this was going on.  My shamanic senses were awake and I noticed the trees rustling and the dogs starting to bark before my body went into spasm – I could feel the telluric currents of the Earth and how everything was tuned into them.  It was a wonderful feeling, delicious and sometimes causing me deep belly laughs. At other times it was as though every organ, muscle group and cell in my body was getting its own vibratory massage.  I felt so amazingly relaxed after and knew that the Earth had given me some amazing healing.

When I started planning for our next retreats, I decided to go back and explore this experience more thoroughly.  I knew, from my kinesiology training, that the psoas muscle was involved and that it tends to hold onto emotional experience and trauma, so that was my first stop.  I was amazed to discover that there is a whole new paradigm of trauma release, with exactly the same exercises that came to me at Equinox.  It is no longer sufficient to treat trauma and PTSD on a one-to-one basis, as we now have whole communities, even countries that are traumatised.  These exercises are very easy, anyone can do them and teach them to others and they always work.

They work because there is no escaping trauma in life, so we are endowed with the ability to experience it and recover from it, just like all the other animals.  We have just forgotten how to let go and release as a physical action, so the trauma stays in our minds and in our bodies.  We talk about ‘cellular memory’ but ignore the fact that cells are physical!  Of course we can, and do, affect our bodies with our thoughts and feelings.  We all know how the immune system is especially vulnerable to critical self-talk and negative feelings, but if it was that easy to turn this around wouldn’t we have done it already?

It is that easy, we just haven’t been approaching the problem in the right way.  Trauma, stress and many so-called psychological problems are maintained in the body and the mind is consistently drawing our attention to what needs to be released in the body. When this doesn’t happen our minds begin to alter our sense of self in order to be consistent with the physiological changes and chemical changes our bodies experience as the result of the contraction from prolonged stress and tension.  This in turn changes our neurophysiological structures and our entire experience of ourselves in the world changes.  Our reality changes and we begin to create our future experience according to this limited reality.  We cannot ‘let go’ of something, or release tension, just by thinking about it.  That’s one reason why talking therapies have limited results.

In this video David Berceli explains how he discovered this process and how he has used it in his work as a therapist specialising in PTSD.  It is an excellent video, in which he also goes through the exercises in a group setting and in real-time so you can follow along.  I followed the process again and I had a similar result as for the Equinox, not quite as intense and with slightly different shaking movements, but the end result was the same – a wonderful feeling of relaxation and release.

This time, I did the exercises with conscious awareness, as opposed to the spontaneity of the Equinox experience.  After the Equinox, I felt great and relaxed, but I didn’t know that it was because I had released trauma from the distant past.   I was homeless for a while and in an abusive relationship as a teenager, now ancient history.  However, with the conscious release came the realization for me, that my ‘corporate career’ was in reality a reaction to this trauma.  The physical abuse over several years forced me into a different identity that was contracted and limited; I could only perceive the world through the lens of survival and material things.  I was lucky, I was able to survive and thrive in that existence.  It was only when I began to question, “Is this it?” that Sophia sent Dexter into my life and the contracted me began to spin out and expand.  This realisation gave me psychological closure on any residual trauma and also opened another door – is trauma preventing people from experiencing the magic?

I am working on this assumption for our Beltane Retreat.  We are all capable of telepathy, clairaudience, lucid dreaming and so much more, but we are not able to access these faculties when our bodies are contracted.  We cannot experience freedom in contracted bodies. Experiencing trauma is essential to the shamanic experience, as we can’t experience the fullness of life without getting out of our comfort zone and this can be traumatic.  We are designed for that, we are amazingly resilient; we just need to remember to release the trauma, to shake it off and move on so that we can perceive the magic that is all around us.

Individual Declaration of Independence

When we moved to Spain we unplugged from some of the darkest magic of the English language.  Every word has a vibration and a deeper meaning that feeds directly into our subconscious minds.  The words of our ‘inner critic’, created for us by the authority figures of our childhood, are the primary tools of our enslavement.  The enemies of humanity do not have the power to enslave us, the luminous children of Gaia-Sophia, but they can and have tricked us into consenting to our own enslavement.  This has been going on for millenia, with the pattern passed down the generations

A week or so ago, I realised that I wanted to make my own Declaration of Independence and proclamation of my sovereignty.  Words are powerful and speaking these words out loud, in the presence of witnesses changed something in me.  Initially, I felt giddy and excited, but also wobbly and unstable.  The system of contracts with its false reciprocity provides an illusion of stability that I had come to rely on unconsciously.  Freedom doesn’t come with a support structure, but it only took a few days to adjust.

Here is my declaration:

“I make this Declaration of my own free will on the eighth day of this Visvamata shift in the presence of three human witnesses and our Earth Mother.

I, now and from this time forth, declare myself to be a sovereign being and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I declare myself formally and of my own free will to be free of my baptismal vows.  I renounce these vows and I declare my sovereignty.

I declare myself formally and of my own free will to be free of any allegiance to any country, government, institution or belief system and all their agencies and temporal powers.  I renounce all such allegiances and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I declare myself formally and of my own free will free of any contracts made in the legal name assigned to me at birth.  I renounce all such contracts and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I declare myself formally and of my own free will free of any vows or contracts made in any previous or future incarnations.  I renounce all such vows and contracts and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I declare myself formally and of my own free will free of any allegiance to any false masters, archons, angels or entities, ascended or otherwise.  I renounce any such vows, contracts or allegiances and I declare myself free to pursue my own path.  I declare m sovereignty.

I declare myself formally and of my own free will free of any vows, promises or contracts to experience hardship, limitation, bad relationships, ill-health, financial hardship or anything in my life that is energy draining.  I declare myself free of all such agreements and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I declare myself formally and of my own free will free of any agreements, vows, promises or contracts and all back-up clauses, copies, mirrors and counter-copies or counter-agreements that prevented me from being my sovereign self in this or any other lifetime. I formally and of my own free will revoke any such agreements and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I reclaim all my energy that has gone into any of these agreements or contracts or any version of them or any copies, duplicates or counter-copies.  I proclaim my sovereignty.

I send all these agreements, contracts, vows, promises and all copies, duplicates, counter-copies or mirrors back to the Pleroma to be transmuted and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I declare myself free of all impacts, beliefs, perceptions, attitudes, identities or emotions related to these contracts, agreements, vows or promises and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I declare my independence and sovereignty as a human animal and from this time forth I declare and proclaim my right to determine my own path in Existence and I proclaim my sovereignty.

I am sovereign.”

I pricked my finger and pressed it into the Earth to seal the Declaration.